Stress, Stress and more Stress

I wanted this blog to become a happy blog but I gotta write, I gotta get my feeling out!!! I am soooo beyond stressed it is not funny anymore. I want to go back to school but I think Mike is with holding doing the income tax return so I can not have the money to go back to school. ( $400 ) Next this sex thing and his is driving me insane. Things he has said about my sex drive ring in my brain and I can not get them out even tho he told me to "forget" that he said it and asked me to try. He is upset because he does not get sex as offen as he would like. We "use" to be a once a week couple, but the more he gets sad and mopey and the more I can not pull him up the more I get sad and stressed and I sware that hampers the sex drive. Mike told me I was not "normal" and I am "unhealthy" when it comes to my sex drive. He had me convinced I was not normal and even broke down and talked to my gyno about it. He told me I am NORMAL and no UNHEALTY, and many many women that he sees has no sex drive and stress is the #1 cause of loss of a sex drive. Well I am a stressful person by nature. And this year these last lets say 3 months have been VERY stressful....forclosure, gas getting shut off, electric getting shut off, work, and then this sex thing. When he talks about this sex thing I try to understand his need, I ask questions BUT because I guess I ask to many question so I can understand better I am NOT allowed to ask questions anymore. He even went as far as telling me he thought my doctor was wrong and i should seek a new gyno ( o.k. not in so many words but it was hinted at ) because my doctor will not prescribe anything. I sit back and look at everything and I am more stressed ALMOST to a depressed state because I feel like my marriage is ONLY based on sex. And because that is how I see it I am MORE upset, and depressed. Maybe I am over reacting, maybe I am not normal, and even tho he asked me to forget he even said that how could I when those words are what he meant. I ask myself can he accept me for me, for who i am and what I am and what I do? Can he love me if he does not get this sex? Sex is not on the top of my "todo" list if you get what I am saying. I could live with out it, BUT I give him sex when I do becuase that is what he wants. I sware he wants me to be some kind of hore, nympho, something along those lines. I talk to my bestfriends C and V about this and C is married and she assures me I am normal, that Mike and I have a better sex life then her and B. V has not had sex in over 1 year and she is not dying and she is normal. AND V is single, can go out and have sex with the first guy that walks into any bar if you get what I am saying but chooses NOT to. C also tells me too that B "wishes" he could have it more than once a week more like 2 times a month but he does not get all mopey, depressed becasue he is not getting any sex. Maybe this is the beginnig of the end....but I am not the one to call it quits...BUT I think Mike will soon because he says I wont change....but why should I change when all he does is make fun of my sex drive and puts me down about it every single time the subject comes up. He even went as far as telling me " the more you do it the more you will like it ".....I just have no clue. I hate feeling like I am bad for feeling the way I do. I hate that I can NOT make him happy unless he gets sex from me and there is no other ways to get a smile on his face. And that last sentance right there leads me to believe again that our marraige is ONLY sex based to him.
If you do not believe me on how he is wallowing in on this sex thing here is his blog link...you tell me....
http://brokenhubby27.blogspot.com/

I am going to stop now...cause what is the use....No matter what I do I am sure everyone out there will agree with him and make me feel worse!!!