I am in a picture mood....Here is my wedding picture. I do not have a good pic of Mike and me that I can find...but this will do. I am still working on finding a good one :) But I love this picture of the 2 of us. ( May 11, 1996 )

I talk alot about Dave my brother in law..this is what was left of his car....Sept 12,2005

Gee what a day....Get up and out the door we went. A kid in Brad's boyscout den's father is the manager of a movie thearter. So they get in for free. So we went to 2 movies..not in the same building but next door to each other. No biggie. First we went and saw Harry Potter. it was o.k. and it was also Jakob's second time seeing it because he went to a friends bday party last weekend and it was at the movies. Then we walked next door to see " His mine and ours" or something like that....cute movie. But the mother/wife of manager/son is a ROYAL pain in da ass. O.k. she is nice, she meens well, BUT can be very annoying. Like when we went into to see Harry Potter, because it was not her husbands theater we could not get free popcorn and soda, just free tickets. No biggie. My kids wanted popcorn and soda, so we got a large popcorn and a large soda to split between the 5 of us ( we had Zachary this weekend ). She almost had a fit on me becuase we could not wait to get to the other theater where the pop corn and soda was free. Come on the movie is over 2 hours long, my kids wanted a snack. And I even stated that. yes my kids had the free popcorn and soda for the second movie but what ever. We wanted to buy our kids this so we did. Just because she got us in for free did not meen she could tell me what I could do. And becuase her husband is in charge she calls them "her movies". her husband tho is very nice and quiet. He got the popcorn and soda for the kids AND at the end of the movie gave them all Harry Potter posters. And he had a big smile on his face. I could tell he was happy to have all his sons friends there. But man oh man the wife/mother she is surely a winner at the game of life if you know what I am saying.
Then came home and I started looking for address for this sunday school reunion. I am helping good ole Judy plan this for her father. I did good. I came with almost all of my classes address. Some where fun to get but I did it. I had to call as far as Maine to get a Ct address..and I live in Ct. and I even called I think North Carolina. Maybe south....to get 2 address here in Ct. I even called the old minister to get one of the address and then called her son to give him a personal invite. I was glad to hear he remembered me and was very happy I called. He said he will be there for this advent. Matt wishes he could come but he is going back to germany this week. Plus he is down in the carolinas. I hope Matt's sister and brother come. Mr Petz is going to be sooo happy. I bet he is going to cry. I hope we do not kill the poor man he is 93 yrs old. But I think it will be a fun time had by all.

Next Dave most likely will be moved tomorrow to a nurcing home right here in town. Only about 3 mins away. So Sally can stop and see him every day now. she almost has to pass this place to go home from work. So it is not out of the way....AND I said now when i make a wal-mart trip I will stop and see him, cause it is almost across st from wal-mart...and god knows I am there alot. Sounds like this home will give him the care he needs ALONG with the theropy he needs. I hope they figure this all out soon tho. Gotta love insurance companys. OH you gotta hear this too
....Dave had to use the bathroom, the nurses were not coming, so he thought he could hop to the bathroom on his good leg, ( and yes he broke that leg ) well he fell. He did not get hurt but it shows him he can not walk and needs more help then he was willing to admit before.
Then yesterday Sally and Alex went to a local drug store to pick up a script. make a long story short, a old lady, crashed into the building while sally and alex were inside. The lady creamed a car, took down a pole and then into the building. My sister was shook up from all of this.

Well that is about it. Tomorrow I am taking the kids to work with me. Because they are getting a extra day off from school. LUCKY!!! Oh yeagh I also have a 8am dentist appointment. YAHOOO.....not!!!! So I better go for now. Lots of things I must do.
Night night world.....

I desided to post this almost year old photo of my boys and me..Brad is on the left and Jakob is on the right. I usally ware glasses but for pictures I do not ware them...can we say glare?! But there ya go.

Ok. I am not sure if I have mentioned Dave over here yet....if not long story short...10 weeks ago ( will be 11 weeks on Monday the 28th ) Dave was in a bad car accident. In hospital for 8 weeks 2 days, moved to rehab center 2 weeks ago today. Now becuase they are calling his left leg a "dead" leg at this point ( he broke 37 bones in his body ) becuase he can not bare weight on it. So get this Rehab center is saying they can not work with him till he can bare weight on leg, FIRST they were going to send him home...puts us all in a 360 spin...house is NO WARE wheel chair excessible. So plans have been in the works to get the house ready for him for the 30th....that is the date they said they were going to release him. O.k. now Dave forms a blood clot in his left leg...bed rest for 3 days no biggie. NOW today rehab calls my sister and says...well the insurance company says he can no longer stay here in our rehab becuase we can not rehab him till the doctors at the hospital give him the o.k. to bare weight on his left leg. They have to move him on Friday to a nursing home. THEN on tuesday he goes to see hospital doctor...IF hospital Doctor says he can bare weight he can go back to rehab center that day...OMG what the hell are they doing. They got to fire these half ass backward insurance companys who think they know what is best. SO now dave will not come home...( a blessing trust me ) will go to a nurcing home on friday just to go back to rehab on Tuesday or wed. This is what I say to that ....give me a break!!!!!!!!! BUT now there is another catch 22 as they like to call it. IF nursing home of choice has a bed BUT bed wont be ready for something like 5 days insurance will continue to pay for bed at rehab center till nurcing home bed is ready. NOW this part could work....if they have bed....and not ready yet...then......dave goes to hospital for xray and see doctor....doctor say yes rehab bare weight he will never have to move...but who knows...poor guy. I wanted to go and see Dave tomorrow after all it is thanksgiving BUT it is going to snow...at least my sister an nephew are going to rehab center and spending the day with him and sister is even cooking...cause dave says food SUCKS at rehab. So I hope it is not snowing that bad so We can go and visit....oh well gotta go...just have to vent about these stupid ass rehab center.
talk to you all soon....

Ok. it is offical, they are now tring to RUSH the xmas spirit. Xmas trees are now for sale BEFORE the first day of school. BEFORE halloween. Then last night on tv the movie "A Christmas Story" was on tv. Ummmm it is not even Thanksgiving. Then today A.j and I were on our way back to work from wal-mart and guess what....there is now a station on the radio that is playing xmas songs. HELLO it is MONDAY the mad xmas shopping does not start till firday at 5am when all those crazy people are standing outside of the stores forming lines just to try to get that bargin, and stand in a 1 hour plus line just to check out...when all these crazy people can be doing is staying home IN BED sleeping!!!! Just mad I tell you. I did that shopping thing a few times and it was just not worth it. Lines, grabby cranky people because they did not get enough sleep the night before, they been up for almost 48 hours tring to get that perfect turkey dinner down. I wonder how many people this year are going to start riots in walmart over what ever toy is the most popular. Oh thats another thing...why is eveything sooo over priced and they just break with in 3 plays....pay a arm and a leg and just to watch it break....so smarty pants was it worth the wait in the ugly lines dealing with all those cranky ass people...nope...so STAY HOME!!!
Next while I am on this shopping rant....lets talk....I was just scanning the tv. We have dishnetwork and there is this channell that is broadcasting the new release of the xbox 360 all over the US. And the part that amazes me is that they are treating it like a New Years Eve party in time square. My lordy it is just a gaming system. The games are over rated in price. And if you let your kids sit infront of it too long they become demands...just ask me I know. they even have a freak'n clock in the corner for the count down till midnight because at midnight they go onsale....geesh...go to bed people...in a few months they will be all over the place...but you gotta stand in line just to say you were one of the first to get a new xbox 360. those people must have no life.
Welll now that I have ranted about xbox and xmas before the season...I shall return to my non bitch mode....
Good note...I finally got the update sort of from Matt. And to boot I talked to him on the phone tonight :) Its sad that he is going through hell alone over in Germany but he hopes to be moving back to the states. I do not have all details but time will tell. Another good thing he told me is that he is out of the service. Even tho he still does work for the goverment he is no longer in the army!! Phew do not have to worry about him going to war over seas...even tho he is over seas. It only took me a year to get my update.... But I was glad to hear he is doing well.
Well gotta run...

Well tonight we went and saw Dave. I got some news that I just do not know how to think about what is going on. Now Dave can not move his left side with out him being in extreme pain. He can barely move his left leg, he can not raise his left arm above his head due to his sholder being broken, and they say it will take 2 yrs to heal properly. His hole left side is crushed. They shoved Dave out of the hospital, Sally fought for this rehab place, and now this rehab place that is spoz to be the best in the state...very well known for there rehab is now going to ship Dave home. And the reason is because he can not bare weight on his left leg. They are going to do an xray next week, that xray will be sent to Hartford Hospital so the surgeon can look at it and say if it can bare weight yet. If the doctor says it is not ready to bare weight then rehab is kicking him out of his bed and sending him on his way. They say he will get all the theropy he needs 3 times a week, physical, speach, ectra....they will come to the house. Then when he is well enough he can go to a theropy place. But come on I feel like they are just giving up on him. I can tell tho Dave is getting upset. Like he has no controll over anything. But then to make things worse they got into a fight tonight while we were there Dave and Sally. I think Sally could be more supportive of Dave and visit more and I even said that to her in the past, but I can also see her argument about how hard it was to get to Hartford everyday...( 1 hour drive ) but now that he is in gaylord it is only 20 mins from there house I see no excuse but on Wed. when Alex has scouts and she does not get out of work till 4:30pm. She was yelling about sitting at his bed side while he was in a coma, how she was there when he woke up and he had no idea how she was. He started asking her well how was he spoz to feel yadda yadda yadda. This HOLE thing stemed from sally saying that Robin and Walter were going to take a buffett table and hutch that they have in the spare room. Now I can see what Dave is saying, this was his fathers. He gave it to them, and with out talking it over with Dave she is just taking it apon herself get rid of it. He looked at me and asked if his white truck was still in the driveway and his ranger was still in the grass....making sure she has not gotten rid of them. BUT the ranger has had a 4-sale sign in it for months now. She told Dave tho that she might have the camero sold....I almost passed out there becuase that car is her baby. It is a 85 Camero and she got it in 86 or 87. And has refused to part with it. I can not understand my sister. I love her todeath but I just do not understand her ways at times!!!

Things at home home are unravling faster and faster. I just wish I can find and end. Our money problem is out of controll. I can not think anymore. My brain is getting over loaded. The only thing I can feel good about is that my marraige is on the right track...at least I hope. And I hope Mike feels the same way. I do not want to go in circles any more.......As long as that does not fall apart I am all set.

I know at times I may seem distant, but I worry about everything and anything. And I have alot on my brain about money and bills and everything that has been going on, I am just feeling over whelmed. I can not wait to we are out of the woods 100%. I will even settle for 80%. I just do not want to ever ever ever ever get this low on money woes again as long as I live. The stress is killing me. I just want to end the stress.

Well gotta run, its bed time!!!

LOL I had to post this little guy...he is soo funny....and describes how I am feeling at this point But I think he is going to have to sprinkle this shit heavy on me. LMAO...

Well now that my other blog is going to the great beyond....aka death....cause they are desiding that they can not longer offer a blog site I am coming back over here. I knew I had this blog...set it up but NEVER wrote in it. So why not start now. So this is it...my new home...I am going to start fresh over here. Make it a new home....I have alot of stress in my life...nothing that I have controll over but I am going to try to sort it all out...and try like hell NOT to be a downer. Not let my stress effect my blog. But if I do I am sorry. I am digging out of a hell....a hell that I have been tring to dig out from under neath. Someday I will look back at this and tell you this was all easy. But baby steps is what they say. I know there is an end insite, BUT right now it is hard to see. Everything from forcloser...to hoping this time we are taking the correct steps to saving our marraige, to the utilities being shut off one by one. But we will survive. We will get past this and we will be stronger than ever....that is what I have to keep telling myself....well with that being said...let me get this posted and see what I can do here....till the next time....bye bye