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Tuesday, December 27, 2005

I GOT A PICTURE OF MY RING


After many many tries I FINALLY got it :) I know it is not great BUT at least you get the idea!!! My Christmas gift from my husband!!! I love you Mike :) Aint my ring pretty???

John Valby Pics



Vikki sent me some pics from Valby friday night. I am still looking for a picture tho that I think I took on Lisa's camera.....The famous signing!!! But anyway here are 2 pictures that Vikki sent to me.

We sat right on the stage for the show...his back was to us most of the nigh but we still had a great seat....Oh corse that is Vably himself and the other picture is Lisa, my best friend Vikki and myself with my eyes closed. I do not take a great picture!!

Monday, December 26, 2005

Christmas....

Well Christmas has come and gone. This year we can call it a "history" year. We had Dave able to join us on xmas eve. AND he even went home to his house on xmas day for the first time and helped cook the dinner. He glazed the ham and barked orders VERY well. He was the only one who pissed me right the fuck off on xmas day over his potatoe masher...so I just stayed away from him for the rest of the day. I bit my tongue just to make it a happy day for everyone. But anyway.........Friday night I went to Toads place with Mike, Vikki, her friend Lisa, Kevin, Jimmy (??? was that his name ) and I think a guy named Dave. They were all Vikki's friends..well any who the kids spent the night at my mothers house and we went to Toads to see John Valby. What a great show put on my Dr. Dirty himself. Mike even had fun....but he loves shit like. Saterday I went and got the boys while Mike went to get Zachary and find out if there would be a fight for him. AND GUESS WHAT!!!!????? WE GOT ZACHARY!!! Let me explain that. Yes we see him all the time. BUT never ever ever has Mike been able to wake up xmas morning with his son Zachary. He has always stayed at his Moms house...even tho the court order said every other weekend. So for the first time we had xmas morning as a family. But anyway back to saterday.....I learned JUST before picking up the boys that my father had brought my sister to the E.R. cause she thought she broke her leg/foot. She got it tangled up in the hope chest Friday night did not hurt went to bed got up and could not move her foot. So they say it was a bad sprain. So she got crutches. Then on the way home from getting the boys she called me and asked me to get Dave some gateraide and wonton soup. So I stopped in the plaza and got the items requested and off to the home. Dropped them off said see ya tonight at Mommy's for dinner and gift exchanging. On the way out the door the den dad called and had things for brad from the pack meeting the night before...so off to his house to collect. Then FINALLY we got home were I hid upstairs and wrapped till I was tired. Then it was time to go to Mom and Dad's for dinner. Had a nice time and Dave seemed happy to be out of the home. THEN we came back home around 10:30pm and we let each of the boys open a gift. I can not remember what everyone opened BUT ME!!!! I got my diamond ring!!!!! OMG it is perfect!!! I am on cloud nine. He picked out one of those past present future rings. I almost started to cry but my step son was looking at me so I stopped the water works. So I took of my grandmothers diamond ring and replaced it with my new diamond ring from Mike. That right there made my xmas beyond special. Then it was time for the kids to go to bed and this year was the first year I did not put the gifts under the tree that night....hell they know there is no santa and if I want ANY once of sleep they were going to wait till I got up. AND IT WORKED!!! Mike and I got up around 8am and the unwrapping began around 8:10am. They were just as excited. Brad and Jake did not open them all...I wanted it to be fare amount they all opened so they got the rest after we got home from my sisters house. At my sisters house Dave seemed to be in a pissed off mood even bit my head off when I was joking to my sister about her masher and how I was going buy her one from xmas next year...he told me I could buy one but if I did I could KEEP it becuase his masher worked just FINE!! He looked at me so coldly and so meen I almost said FUCK YOU and walked out becuase my sister and I were JOKING about it and he came into the kitchen after the fact like 20 mins and bit my head off. Guess he was not happy to be in HIS house for the first time since he was in his crash on Sept 12th. Then we left later in the afternoon came home and let the kids open the rest of there gifts. Then while the kids and Mike stayed home to play with the new stash of stuff I went back to my mothers house to see all my aunts and uncles and a few cousins. Then after bringin my uncle al hom I was home around 11pm. But it was truely the BEST christmas for me in a very very long time!!! Christmas has not been Christmas to me since the first year we did it with out gram...but this year seemed to work and it will be in my heart and soul forever!!! The pictures are kind of out of order a bit below and I TRIED to get a shot of my ring but it comes out blurry!!! So I will keep tring to get it right and post that as soon as I can. Well gotta run...doing laundry...going to Mikes family on Thursday...






Dave sitting on a couch for the first time since Sept. 12th. ( also first time in a house. ) And Sally Ann sporting her crouches...They say she sprained her ankle at the hospital...time will tell. What a cute couple.
Marci, Shane, and Ashely
Aunt Sharon
Unlce Al and Cousin Ciel
Uncle Monty and Uncle Bob
Aunt Alice, Aunt Sue, Aunt Janet, and Aunt Shirley
Litle Mikey, Uncle Bob, Uncle Mike and Mom
This blanket she started with the help of gram many
years ago. Gram was never able to finish it due to making
all us grandchildren and great grandchildren our own.
So every year she has done one row on it...till Aunt Alice
Got the afgan from her daughter ( no small feet ) and
she finished it. She was crying beause she NEVER EVER
thought she would see the day it would become finished.
Plus it was like having gram there :)
Aunt Janet is crying now.....Aunt Sue is holding her
Now she is getting to open it...and she may have a clue.....
Aunt Janet getting her xmas gift taken away
Oh what a couple they make...
The Grandkids...Jake, Brad, Zach and Alex
Jakob, Bradley and Zachary...xmas eve

Sunday, December 18, 2005

About me at Christmas time

I was reading random blogs today.... and saw this so I said ..." what the hell" so here it goes :)


Welcome to the 2005 Holiday Edition of Getting to Know Your Friends!Everyone has time for a few moments of fun! Don't be a party pooper!!!
1. Eggnog or Hot Chocolate? Eggnog
2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree? His elveswrap them-duh! (good answer, going to keep that one)
3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? Colored lights
4. Do you hang mistletoe? No
5. When do you put your decorations up? Usally the 2end week of Dec.
6. What is your favorite holiday dish (excluding dessert)? Was my grandmothers ham...now my aunt makes it...almost as good as grams
7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child? Going to my grandmothers house and being packed in there...not a place to sit..the floor was taken, the stairs were taken...EVERYONE was there. ( then again my mom is one of 8 and back then there was 20 grandchildren and a few great grandchildren..so it was a house full )
8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? When I found the gifts in the basement...but I never let on that I knew...oh Wait are you telling me that my mom lied and those were not broght by the elves becuase santa could not get to every house on xmas eve?
9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? Yes that is when we do our exchange with my mother father sister nephew and brother in law
10. What kind of cookies does Santa get set out for him? What ever cookies I have in the house
11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? LOVE IT!!! Makes everything so pretty
.12. Can you ice skate? I have no idea have not been in years....last time I think was when I was a teenager!
13. Do you remember your favorite gift? It had to my 5 speed bike....I finally got a bike of my own that was not used!!! And believe it or not My boys ride that bike still to this day when they go over my mothers house....even tho I should bring it home and take bike rides with the boys more
14. What's the most important thing about the Holidays for you? Seeing all the family members taht I can!!!
15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? Never eat it cause I always pig out on the main meal !!
16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Going to my mothers house on xmas eve
17. What tops your tree? A star that kind of wont sit up right...its retarted just like me
18. Which do you prefer Giving or Receiving? O.k. I am bad but I love opening gifts...and I miss being a kid!!
19. What is your favorite Christmas Carol? Sielent Night
20. Candy Canes! Yuck or Yum? Yummy
21. What is your favorite holiday movie? The Best Christmas Pagent Ever...and The Christmas Story

Saturday, December 17, 2005

this and that


Mr. Petz's Pary..
Mrs. Petz



Wow it has been almost a week. Hmmm where to begin. Lets see We had alot of snow last weekend. This picture is when I started to go outside and clean the snow off Mike's car and shovel. I think we got almost 10 inches. Needless to say the kids got a "snow" day for this. Brad and Jakob and the kids next door had alot of fun playing that afternoon...Jakob not so much outside but hey he got to play the beloved xbox with out Brad saying it was his turn yadda yadda yadda. Alex the neighbor tho thought that it would be fun to think of the snow blower as a sprinkler system...aka snow sprinkler and kept running in and out of it. Well then that night Brad was "spoz" to go to scouts..but because mike was at the station working I had the van and seeing I heard horor stories about what she can not do in the snow/ice I desided it would be safer to stay home...and boy oh boy I think it was a good idea. Here is why....Saterday morning I got a phone call from Lori...Lori is a mom I met through scouts bolth her sons are in bolth my sons dens. Lori asked what I thought about Brad and Lewis, and Zachary being kicked out of there den. I was like WHAT???!!!????!!! and How they asked Wayne her husband to be the new Den father becuase Den 3 was going to be split...now are we holding onto our seat...this is the reason why.......I guess I have an attitude problem and so do the other parents of Lewis and Zachary..... I can understand Zachary but come on now. I know I got upset at the last den meeting said it was not right what I thought was going on...but said i was sorry for the way I came across....then 2 days later we went to help wrap gifts for the fort Drum kids in new york and this man and myself were getting along just fine....Now I got a BAD attitude and I am no longer welcome in his den. This man could not even tell me this on the phone when I called him to tell him I was not going to the meeting that night. He told me when the next den meeting was....what time his xmas party was at his house that he invited the boys to last month..yadda yadda yadda...the hole dam time he KNEW that my son was no longer part of his den. But there is alot more to the story but in the end Brad is now in a new Den with a new Den father....and the new den is made up of all the misfit scouts and 2 other boys...on becuase his dad is the new den parent and the other just could not stand the back stabbing that went on and how this all took place. O.k. done and over...next comes sunday and Jakob's bday party...OMG my baby is 9!!!!! I desided to help keep up with Dave's spirits I would have the party at the home. SO we had cake at the nurcing home so this way Dave could be part of the party. Dave was tired tho becuase the night before he made his first trip out of the hospital ( aka rehab, hosp, nurcing home ) and went to church at his church. He even stood UP on his own!!! GO DAVE!! But anyway the party was nice. Tuesday came and yup it was Jakob's real bday...so we let Jakob choose where he wanted to eat....and of corse true to all kids nature he chose McDonalds....He could of had HomeTown anything but he chose the golden arches. After that we went to Blockbuster and rented 2 movies and bought Jakob Halo 2 for his bday. The rest of the week was calm till today....Today was the sunday school reunion....and Man oh Man there were alot of people there. Almost my hole sunday school class was there minus Matt who is over in germany. But people i had not thought of in ages!!! I was just delighted to see everyone. Mr and Mrs Petz still look the same...only us kids have aged. Well there are pictures above but they are randon....but at least I know what they are...and maybe some of you out there do too. :)

Monday, December 05, 2005

MORE THIS AND THAT


Well the Sally and Dave saga continues. I feel bad for bolth of them becuase they just can not understand what the other one is thinking and going through. Dave feels like he has no controll and the one thing he can have controll over he feels like the one person who should support him can not support him. And how Sally has now become the "head of house". Dave continues to fight us all on what we think is the better medical care. Where granted the place that kicked him out due to the fact he could not weight bare on his left leg yet was over medicating him to the point where be became toxic. Not deadly but was getting there quick. Where here at least he is getting the care that he needs. BUT he is in a nurcing home now and his spirits are getting worse. I just had to talk to my sister last night and try to explain. I think today everyone is calmer then last night...and dave even seemed in a better mood. BUT sallly is over reacting a tab about tonights snow storm...she is afraid she is going to loose power and loosing power meens no bathroom and no heat...she is packed up my nephew and the dog, locked up the cats in different parts of the house so they do not fight and heading to Seymour to spend the night. She is going to my mothers house so she will have water even if there is no power she can still go potty and flush...My poor nephew called me begging me to talk his mother into staying home...I tried but she was hell bent.

Next there is a picture in this post...this is my oldest friend Vikki....I just wanted to post her here to tell her I know how to post pictures....and steal them too. LMAO....and I will need pics of Matt so please get them to me...maybe the reunion...so I can start to black mail him...to at least write . Well Love ya all!!
Night night...and lets pray for a DUD snow storm...I want to work tomorrow.

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Today was run around day

Well today was a fast pase type of day. Got up took a shower and it was out the door we went. Took the boys to my mom and dads house so I could go get a little pampering done aka my nails. ( this is my "relax" time ) Then went back to my moms to get the boys where they helped put together the reindeer that my father built for the front yard and then pappa let them drive the quad. Jakob toor up some grass up near the top of the drive way doing what the boys called "whole shots". Came home and the kids desided to stay home so Mike stayed home with them and I went to my cousin sons 16th bday party just down the street. That was a nice time. Not many family members where there but was glad to see the ones that were there. I always look so forward to seeing my family. I even got to see my cousin Dougie for the 4th time this year!!! Now that is something big for me....he usally stays away from family things. But this year he is coming out of his shell more I even got to see his daughter again..she is just a cutie. Before this year the last time I saw Dougie was at my grandmothers funeral and that was back in 2001. But I got his phone number now so I will be keeping in touch more with him. Then after the party I ran home and we hopped in the van and met the Fallon's in there drive way and followed them to a bowling ally in Thomaston and bowled 2 games. The boys had ALOT of fun!! I had alot of fun with Shelly and Mike. I hope Mike did too becuase I would like todo more things with them, get out more offen and do family things with other families. Then we came home and did the hair cutting of the boys. Well Mike did it I took pictures. Now we are home and settling in for a long winter nights nap...and who knows maybe in the morning we will have snow on the ground...they are calling for something but never the less it will be snow. Well it is time for me to get going....good night everyone.

This is me :)


Well I desided to have Mike take a pic of me for the blog...and guess what folks..I have my glasses on...so this pic is the true me...and God I look like shit.

more pics

Put a fork in me cause I am done....
Bradley again

Brad's turn to get shaved :)

Ok Brad it's your turn....brief discription here..see the brown thing on the left at the end of that railing is my bedroom door....Mike and Brad are in the bathroom and Jakob is standing in Brad and Jake's bedroom door...see what I meen when I say it is tiny at the top of the stairs....yes I was standing on the stairs to take all these pictures mostly.

more shaved head pics

This is what Jakob looked like as soon as he got down stairs....can you tell Kisha the dog is thrilled to be trapped by him???

Hair chopping

look that is Jakob you can see his ribbs....

Time to shave those mops of my sons....here are some picutes...

This is my baby Jakob...for everyone who knows how "chunky" he use to be look at him now...he is slimming down nicely!!!

Friday, December 02, 2005

Ohhh I forgot to mention a special hello to my good ole' friend Matt!! Hope you made it back to your home safely and things are calm...AND you better write more or I will leave you comments here just to get you to write to me. O.k. now I am going to bed...... And Matt if you do not write to me I will start posting pictures of you from your youth right here on my blog...I have a scanner and I know how to use it. ( Vikki start digging out your old photos...this could be fun LMAO ) ( side note again if anyone finds this blog and is from Shelton Ct and have pictures of Matt class of 1991 from Emmett O'Brien please send them to me at DElder73@aol.com ) night night sleep tight everyone and Mattt you are going to get it LMAO this is going to be fun....random pictures of your past. he he he he he ha ha ha ha ha ha he he he he he he he he

Thursday, December 01, 2005

Todays rant is about teenagers...and how they think they are in Controll......I sware teenagers today are more rude and disrespectful then we ever thought of being. I work on a school bus and the WORST WORST ages are 7th and 8th grade. It is like at this age and grade they are testing the waters. Being a school bus monitor I hear things all the time when I tell them to sit down while the bus is in motion or to watch there mouths they come back with a reply "you talk'n to me"...ummmm hello yes..I was looking right at him or her andthen there was noone else standing up. What ever happened to not talking back to adults. It is like these kids think they are the president or something. They talk about sex...drugs you name it they talk about it. I have a 10 yr old and a 9 year old and I just wonder what they will be like when they hit this stage...and it is only a few years away. When I was younger I was spanked..now we as parents are told we can not spank...it is child abuse. It just sad how what was good for us growing up is now not good for our children. Now granted there are parents out there that were abused as children and I think this is where this no spanking rule came into affect but look at all the others out there that were and they are all fine...no trama or anything. O.k. what about our parents who grew up with cars that did not have seat belts....Now I do agree that car seats are safer but at the same time our parents grew up in a time when there was no such thing or even a law that said we have to ware them. What about growing up and if you had a station wagon you were allow to ride in the way back, or go to the store in the back of dad's pick up truck. Or what about playing outside till it became dark...not sitting infront of vedio game that was attached to the tv. I just do not get it. I am not clamming to be the best parent..I am far from that I am just wondering what ever happened to the good ole days.....